Sucky Sucky Yucky!

It's been quite some time since i experienced a sucky day.

Well, today's one.

Funny how i don't usually feel this way but when i do, it really does feel crappy.

Everything i do or say feels wrong.
Pritty pissed at myself for being so darn forgetful, as usual
I mean, what on earth is wrong with me?!
Can't be that i'm tired cause i do feel quite fresh, tho i only slept for less that 3 hours.
But my alone time at Sun Plaza Park felt good, minusing the fact that it was dangerous.
Had quite a bit on my mind so i just needed to think things through..in a different & more serene environment.slowly

This is when I miss my ol'Mummy. When she used to listen to what i felt & had to say & would give me the advice i need to make me feel better.But it doesn't mean that i have any regrets bout her current condition and that i love her less. In fact, i love her more and more everyday. Just that i miss being pampered by a mother. My mother.

I guess so many things have been happening so fast & i've been so busy catching up & trying to hard to be the perfect everything that when it gets to me, it kinda hurts.
Especially when i fail, due to the slightest mistake.

1. Kinda disappointed Daddy.
2. Pretty much ruined my reputation.
3. Feel i haven't made full use of my life

For once, i wanna allow myself to realise my sadness. Maybe all these while, whenever i do have a bad day, i tend to comfort myself to think positive and be happy, not realising that part of me is in denial. Though it's a good practice to motivate yourself. Guess sometimes, its alright to feel down. That is part of life ain't it?

It's a challenge. An obstacle i have to face.
& like what Bella says, IGNORE.
That's the best. So that it won't get to you.

Be positive & don't let something small spoil the day for yourself & those around you.

Hehe. SEE? I'm at it again, trying to think that things will be ok.
Guess i can't escape from my philosophy.

"EVERY CLOUD HAS A SILVER LINING"

Oh well, the day will pass & tomorrow will be better.

A good cry will wash away the pain & things will be back to normal tomorrow.

Suddenly, i feel like I'm being too emo.

Or maybe, mensus is coming. Hehe

23rd Feb 08 - Yucky Yucky but it'll get better.

Toodlez!